What am I supposed to do
How should I feel
What should I do
Why do I feel this way
Sometimes it feels like I need someone to give me answers
Sometimes I don’t feel like going at it alone
What the hell am I supposed to do
Answer me.
It doesn’t have to be now
(But sooner is better than later)

I don’t feel like reading a book
I don’t feel like working
I feel
Vulnerable
Insecure
Low
So help me.

I cling on to the memory of you.
In the hotel room,
Inside of me
Your smile
While we get ourselves *****
Unholy, yet whole

I didn’t get attached before
So why am I feeling things now?
I want you.
But you don’t want me

I keep up this pretense
To distract myself,
Cleanse myself of you
Yet here we are,
It’s only day 2
Post feeling like
I need to forget you.