****.

the guilt
that inevitably
tosses me into
the air
catches me in it's jaws
and swallows me whole
has just entered
the scene
that **** uncle kracker song
is kicking my brain
repeatedly
hard enough
to feel the pangs
in my chest
*******
why can't i ever
do something
and feel nothing
or at least feel
jubilant
why must i always feel
guilty
why must i always
revisit
something that hurt me
a papoose
will touch fire
get burned
and learn
not to return
i guess i am
too ignorant
to even be
a papoose
or maybe getting burned
doesn't hurt as much
as it should
i've been hurt by bigger things
my capacity for pain
is off the charts
is it my fault
that i've been built
on a foundation
of broken hearts