Up late at night, you slept through the day
Text her first but you don’t know what to say
You ask her dumb things to make conversation
She’s not like the rest of the population
Stuck because she actually showed you love
She gave you the faith in a place up above
All of that’s gone now and it’s just you and I
We’re 0-6 when it comes to attempts to die
But all we need is that lucky number one
Then maybe all of our suffering will be done
I hate the demon that lives inside my brain
The one who feeds me negativity due to pain
Look in a mirror and stare at myself in disgust
I don’t even see a person that I could trust
I don’t even know who I am anymore
Im drinking my life away behind a closed door
I cry at least four times a day and I’m sick
I mentally keep trying but it feels like a trick
So my only escape is through games and ****
Overthinking my life, wishing I wasn’t born
I’ve hurt so many people and I keep on going
Half the time I don’t even know what I’m doing
I have long hair to hide my insecurities
I can’t continue to spread this positivity
Truthfully I’ve given up multiple times
Why do I continue to write these rhymes
They used to help but now I’m just stuck
But I really think I’m running out of luck
I hate you, I hate him, and I hate myself
We’re all the same person, so we hate ourself