I wish Christmas would come early.  I need joy.
I don't need to mourn forever its time to move on
These words that I say may mean nothing at all
They speak the inside of me because fear built a mansion inside of me I  need to break it down and have my  own defenses
I need friends though I don't wanna trust them
Today they talking to me tomorrow we're strangers
What the **** did I do
To get me on my own
Huh? My screaming ain't helping. Is it not too loud?
Sometimes I crumble  in my room in the company of  music  my remedy but need someone to talk to
Escape, run, fly away only if I could.
The paths changed and I got no map in my head
That's why I bow down to this world and act stupid but is heaven is home, the angels should take me away