I am happy
I am feeling and looking happy about my life
I had a very bad anxiety attack
On Saturday night
Because I am getting all these
Demands made onto me
Like I am worried about what
People say if I don’t lose weight
At the weigh in
But the truth is
If I lose more weight it will be a bonus to me but I am happy because my lifestyle has changed
I don’t drink coke
I don’t eat total and utter crap
I get people saying
That they don’t want old Brian returning but I can tell you
I am feeling happy and positive
Knowing I lost over 80 kg and
Even if I don’t lose much more
At present doesn’t necessarily mean
Old Brian is returning
You see I am doing what I want to do
Being strong isn’t really for me
But learning is
I would like to join groups
In art or even dancing like hip hop
But more to my own age group
I think I am putting too much
Pressure on myself
In the attempt on winning awards for weight loss even if I can say to myself
Been there done that
And I could congratulate other people
In following in my footsteps
I will say to you this
I want to stop looking up in anxiety
And the way to do that
Is saying I am happy
And the reason why my workouts
Aren’t doing well is
Because my brain is full of pressure
On being the city’s little angel
I would like to do things in the community and I want the pressure
Of losing weight to go away
I have lost old Brian
He will never return
Never ever ever ever
Because I know the foods and drinks
I had to bring old Brian here in the first place
I am a happy positive person
Who wants to have fun
Old Fat Brian is dead never to be coming back
I thank you to everyone who changed
My bad eating habits but I feel happier now, dudes