It’s on my mind again.
My little silver toy
Careful - it’s sharp!
The last mark fades
And with it my validity
There’s nothing wrong with me
Treatment is going great
I’m happy
I’m highly functional
Yet...... there it is....
It echoes in the abyss of my head
The place where self destruction simmers
It boils and festers
Gathers its strength
To come back harder
I know I will eventually lose
I will most certainly give in
Perhaps not tonight,
But sooner or later
I will surrender
I will see my suffering.