"My hands are tied" He said in the parking lot In the place we once made up In the place I once trotted through and cried Reminiscing on Just how Much and little We ended up Meaning.
I'm sure I will See you again But it won't have to be It won't be When I'm feeling like this.
I felt like a bad imitation painting Of "The Scream" And you rode off in The opposite direction of me Just as I was reaching for you Just as I was calling you.
No need to be surprised You don't dictate How it goes Though I know you tried You always wanted The last word The last walk away The last leaving The last.
Thats just it though isn't it Thats just the end of us The final thread hanging us Among the spider web Of the place, the feeling I long to be done with.
All you had to do Was be honest Kind Transparent.
I have to wade through so much ******* So much ******* now My father and I Are back to not speaking I'm almost 29 I want to hike To forget I meditated on my traumas Worked through them Breathed through the confusion, the fear Wondered and faced The feeling of Still struggling to love myself.
I recognize I've allowed And let people stay That betrayed me or treated me Without respect And its always so sad to let those people go Its always so sad