i cant' keep my head straight it's like it's trying to move in a thousand directions at once i can't control it at all!!!!!!!!! it hurts terribly but it won't tell ne why?????? WHAT THE **** IS WRONG JUST ******* TELL ME do you want to be hapy???? to be a functioning human? just bleed then? utter ******* and just bask in pain?????? numbness? sink into a deep depression. medicate EVERYTHING away???? (why does that sound so ******* good????????????) there's too much in my head GET IT ALL OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!1!!1!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T KEEP THIS STRAIGHT ANYMORE WHAT AM I?????? T E L L M E !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!