Not over You

I am going to be completely honest with my self right now
I never got over you
The timing was terrible
We were clearly young and dumb
I didn’t want to let you go, ever  
I had to go because I no longer had a place
My mind was scrambled and I didn’t know who or what to believe
But I loved you with all that I had even if it was not enough

Our first meeting, I will always be happy it took place
It taught a lot about myself
What I deserve
What I don’t need in my life
It showed me that I was capable of loving someone in many different ways
It brought me out of my shell
It showed me what true love is all about
It gave me patience
It boosted my confidence
It taught me plenty about sacrifice and compromise
It taught me how to go with the flow of things and that some events don’t go as planned
The unplanned outings and moments are worth cherishing
It taught me how to care for another
How to nurture their spirit
How to stand by him/her
Hold hands and share secrets and walk the same path
It helped me grow up and ask for exactly what I deserve and nothing less

I am sorry for how things ended
I am sorry for all the damage that we both suffered because of our own mistakes, mistrust and change in heart
I am sorry for breaking you when I loved you the most and vowed to never leave your side
I will not forget and I do not know how much to forgive
But forgive yourself
Forgive me,

Yes, I am better person because of you but I am still not over you