I sat in bed Hadn't taken meds Hadn't gotten under covers Hadn't plugged in phone
Then I noticed I was opening the drawer Fingers snatched up something silver Cap torn off
As if it wasn't me My hand started testing it Without thought Without plan Just a little dance around my fingers
Took off the outer layer easily A bit too easily So the possessed hand moved lower To the tantalizingly soft, thin flesh To the terribly poetic wrist
Avoided the large blue vein I'm not stupid So the blade moved around a bit Testing angles, pressures
But the tip had found its mark Gentle pressure and a tweak Slowly so I could feel the skin break
Not enough Barely made contact Again! Same spot! Continue digging
then i saw it between broken flesh a tiny, delicate stream it filled in the gap squeezed a bit to see if it would offer more but no....
mY miNd wEnt wilD!!!
aS iT reEntereD cOnsciOUsnesS
adrEnalinE RusHinG
w h a t d i d y o u d o . . . ?
Throw the wretched blade in the drawer! Close it so **** fast
Okay... okay.... get up It's over there... put the cream on it Hopefully won't get infected
Ah a h a m I N d i SSSSSssss
WWWW IIIIIIIII LLLLLLL DDDDDDD
you cleaned it. it's gone. can't see it even. it's fine. you're fine. take your meds. get under cover. plug in phone. you'll be fine. it's fine. IT'S FINE.