what to write about awwww finding your sexuality young
demons and urges, memory .....swept the stolen youth most lose, you ......kept, thrills...... procuring forbidden knowledge obscure to peers till they mature in college
i dont want to talk about this anymore im not normalizing ****
this **** has been in my system for either 11 years or 14, at least conscious of it for 11 they asked me all kinds of questions i knew were just geared for me do you feel spiders do you get wierd tastes do you get bad smells
i mean how the **** could i not know you guys would bust out laughing or say really obvious things ten feet away from me when i had a wierd thought or felt something wierd now i go world wide, its a great feeling isnt it
i mean my sister said ***** supposed to be the opposite but i always try to correct the thoughts i send out to match what im really thinkingn constantly raging an internal war of dyslexia and other mental addictions and illness.
i hear people around me saying all kinds of **** and im always right about what there saying were all up to date on the stupid thoughts i have like my mind is a steel trap, or trying to do the voice match or whatever the **** else or the thoughts you guys get like placebo effect or im not simulating things or the goof would have or whatever else you guys post little obscure messages about my **** hoping to break through my walls but primarily just end up trying to hide this from me so hard that it becomes even more apparent im not stupid or dillusional i may know how to think like a girl but i also know how to think like a bunch of really cool other things i cant even sincerely tell if you guys think im a genius or your laughing at me, and honestly if you knew how many times i felt like absolute ****, youd just be real with me like it doesnt matter now if i know or if i dont theres no way to suppress it anymore,
i know i transmit thoughts and feelings i know they give this medication to the stupidest worst ******* people on the planet and it effects them entirely differently i know its supposed to go into your brains waste bins and eventually peed out and **** out sweat or whatever but for whatever reason ive surpassed the ten year mark .........
i hope you guys know i still love all of you no matter how many times i thought of ending my **** i just want to be loved. i thought if i made everybody happy i could do alot of good but here i am. confused about my sexuality socially isolated and stuck in a town where all my friends are doing really bad *****..... i mean i dont want to go in depth, but you know i know i know you know