Do you know?
Could you even fathom
What I am capable of??
This darkness within me
It’s terribly strong
It’s addictive
Every thought a pleasure...
Horrible and thrilling
I’m brilliant
I could use it
I could be wonderfully terrible
It would be so easy....
Or I could turn it on myself
I know clearly what I’d do...
I would destroy myself
Gladly
Starve ‘til I’m weak
Binge ‘til it hurts
Bleed ‘til I feel faint
Drink ‘til I can’t stand
Abuse every part of myself
Everything I can!!!
A sharp spiral downwards
To my ultimate demise.
I know my fate
If I give in
Ugh.... I almost want it
I’m getting tired
Let me have it.........
But I know
It would only take a step
To extinguish my light
To start down the path
That will end my life