High eyes don't lie that's why I look in the mirror when I smoke I can see the truth in every cough and choke I tell myself all the bad things I've done in the past week "Snorted coke, had more spliffs than I can remember between my teeth, stole a little bit of food to eat, and started selling." Then I start trembling flashes of Eddie in the hospital wing with tubes to keep him breathing, the service, his grandpa grieving, mom being pushed, dad leaving, razor blade in palm, ****** but calm, powders, pills, plants.
Back in the mirror the trembles disappear it became clear I was the only one who I could trust and spill to. Thanks self, for being a real dude.