This is the first summer I haven't had anyone consistent Fill up my cup Fill up my hat I don't stand for it The way I used to I don't reach and croon The way I used to.
At long last, I mopped, organized even My little Chicago age 28 apartment I feel far gone sometimes In the deep wells of my insecurity Ink up my arm Grow my hair long Start running again.
I know that the life I have built here is admirable And a slow uphill climb I reach for opportunities I talk about myself like I'm more important than I am in moments I quietly tell my friends how afraid I really am.