I knew what I want from the start
The feeling of having it gets me so excited;
But then, days passed by
Just took everything for granted,
Made slight efforts to achieve it
But still, those are not enough
Been such a happy go lucky.
I know I can still do a lot more than that
But, yeah, I'm too stubborn to make more efforts
Thinking that all those little things I did
Would suffice everything.
Now, I feel blue,
Having a lot of regrets,
Feeling more depressed.
Thinking the "what ifs" -
If I've done this and that;
If I've struggled harder;
If I've been diligent;
Would I get better results?
Would I get what I wanted?
Would I be happy now?
How would I know?
I could no longer go back in time.
I know I should do better this time
To make up for the mess I've done,
But these regrets continuously linger in my head
And I can't shake it off right away.