I’m constantly hunting to fix those around me
Willing them to love who they are
To ignore the irrational expectations of society

I hold this undesirable need
To make everyone see what I see
Despite what they may believe

I strive to see the beauty around me
But feel like I’m constantly drowning
In a world not meant for me

I am a person that will forever
See he best in everyone around me
But see the worst in everything inside me

When that boy stole everything from me
Making me feel like a useless scrap
I wholeheartedly believed
It was because of me

Despite the amount of times I am pushed aside
And shoved
I continuously come back
Hoping for the best

I find myself pushed down
And left in the dust
Without a second thought

My issue is
I need to stop searching for the good around me
And start searching for the good inside me

Although the world will remain a hurtful place
Maybe I’ll be able to understand my own grace