i am seventeen sitting in classics seeing them hold hands. the girls. they are proud. open. unrelenting. hadrian eyes me, seeing i do not understand. 'cur invida es?' i do not look at him.
odi et amo quare id faciam fortasse requiris nescio sed fieri sentio et excrucior
he puts his hand on my shoulder where it still remains.
latin: cur invida es = why are you jealous? odi et amo... = catullus 85