I'm moving forward,
I'm done making dumb mistakes, I say
But you remember what happens last time?
You turned into a mindless *****, she says
This is the voice in my head
that I try so desperately to ignore
She stands for all I hate, and destroys all I adore
I want to rise, and she wants to fall
I wanna move forward, but she doesn't wanna move at all
I'm trying to go to heaven, but she wants to roast marshmallows on the fires of hell
I end things on a positive note,
but with her things never end well (If at all)
I crave stability, but she craves chaos
I hold on too tightly, she can't hold on
I want love, she wants loss
She wants less and I want more
How do I fix it when its me that I abhor?