some people call me dense
or ignorant
but that's not it.
i'm deep.
so far inside myself
that i can't see.
the world from inside
is so unclear
i cannot understand reality
or anything i hear

sometimes my mind surfaces
a shade or two
and i gain some type of clarity,
so i can hear you
i can feel
in these moments
and its exiting
and cold.
like the world is so raw
outside my soul.
the harshness
of your cutting words-
i'm unprepared
and under dressed
for the real world.