There is a long awaited quiet That finally commences When it is nearly almost midnight And I have spun my hours Working and putting in time.
I try to find the balance Drinking champagne, hoping for some kind of General bliss CBD pills do lighten the load.
Sometimes I feel a sadness That I do continue To attract And bring in the kind of man That cannot fathom choosing to be by my side But would rather hide From his own emotions.
I've adopted a palette Of allowing myself to not care too much I lay my body down At last surrendering Relearning to set boundaries Right at the top To call my own shots And to give As I walk out to sleep alone after.
I wish sometimes That we could have stood a chance And sometimes feel a lonesome quiet rage That you did nothing but Set us up For a quick failure.
Do you remember when Towards the end You got to a place Where you were able to tell me how you felt for me You got to a place Where you were able to exclaim All on your own That you weren't expecting to want Want any of this?
You weren't expecting to want me Is what you meant As I write into the pavement Into the sand Into the volcanic ash "Write to me."
I don't know that you ever will I look for colored sounds to fill the void I feel a deep longing for you in moments I imagine you do too And I wonder you ponder back On my many words Examining them with large blue eyes Late at night Its the hardest Trying to stay away from you.
Its not even that there isn't attention Options But they all mean nothing No, they all mean nothing And it reminds me of how when we were good I felt the capacity and desire to give myself away more More often To other men In order to try and soften the blow Of never really Having you.
That might be my greatest regret Just that
I never got to be your girlfriend.
I would have made you so happy If you had just given me the chance.