i just want someone to need me
like i need them
like we're so intertwined that they'd suffocate
if i forgot to breathe in
i know its unhealthy to love to that capacity
but i can't fight my addiction
i love so deeply that it's hard to understand
why i don't complete them
the way they complete me
i fall too hard
and i bruise my knees
i become infatuated
with the fantasy
i lose myself in
the possibilities
i see where we could go
i buy into the dream
if i can't have you in my waking life
i sell my soul to sleep
a slave to the idea that is you
not wanting to be free
so lost in the way you make me feel
it doesn't occur to me
that you don't love me back
and when i find out i forget who i am
or who i was
before i held your reluctant hand
thinking why don't you love me
i don't understand
what can i do when
i've done everything i can
or everything i thought could make you love me
seeing our "love" as a mountain when it was only a single grain of sand