I so desperately wish
That I could stop caring
I'm clinging to things
I don't want to worry about
People who don't know me
I just want to stop!
I want to freeze time
So I can take a break
From thinking
From breathing
Because right now
I'm just looking for moments
That offer escape
I'm chasing sensations
That remind me I'm destructible
That let my mind be freed
But I can't let go of everything else
Long enough to wade into
The destruction that beckons me
I want it
I want to lose it all
I want to be finished
At least for a while