You walk in my heart starts racing my breathing becomes labored. Fear like I never known grips me as all the scenarios in my head unfold. Which one will come to fruition?

Will I be the cheating ***** today or the lazy ***** on the couch? I say to myself holding my breath palms start to sweat trying to keep calm.

Will the sounds of shattered glass along with my broken dreams of a happy family drown out the sound of my pounding heart sending blood rushing through my body with fear?

I’m drowning in my emotional turmoil at the sound of your heavy footsteps bringing you closer to me. I struggle to breath with every step you take drawing you near.

Just hit me this time my mind screams at me. I can’t take the verbal onslaught anymore. As the words echo in my head “Liar, *****, *****, *****, gold-digger, your used-up nobody else would want you” that hit me like tiny daggers to my heart worse than your fists ever could.

You reach my side as I’m holding back my tears you kiss me on my cheek and hand me roses. I look at you but you don’t see the fear and confusion in my eyes. I’m not important enough for you to notice.

As you walk away, I turn my back letting the tears fall and wishing you would actually see how much I care because my tears are not for me but for you.