Found this gem in my teenage diary I was barely 17 and was coming to terms with my own financial difficulties that were going to transpire soon... I didnt know exactly what was gonna happen or how bad it was going to be actually but I felt that fear brewing in me for a long time and it was getting worse around this time... I'm basically relating to the fact that I never really had money growing up or got to experience what it was like to be spoiled, even in the slightest. the town we lived in was filled up with people who were pretty wealthy so I felt proud for keeping my humility but at the same time I was always so envious of people who got to live that kind of life.