Mother - you make me choose
between my love and you

You reanimate all my inner fears,
all these little nuisances that do itch!
You want to help me but
you don't know what the deal is

And I look at him and I can't feel his love
Did you place a screen to protect my heart?
Or to protect yours?
Do I want to become the rotting ****** I was
Do you want me not to reach who I can be?

And you are like a knife,
that turns to poisonous thoughts
filled with love
I don't want to talk because
to each their own world

Do I have to battle this now - is this not a demon to slay now - but a handicap, earthly prickly one.
You pit the dogs against us - his sin,
his birth year
My brain pollutes, mom - if I let you in
I just cannot be.
If you let me in, I'll burst yours from within.
But you'll close your eyes, you can't see.

You've never understood
so I stopped waiting for you to do.
You don't know about my life and death,
about how I freed myself.
It was his hand - all over me
It was sacred fate - and a good shrink