what if i told you
that i still feel the same
would that be good or bad
or awkward and strange

what if i told you
how i felt that night
before i up and went
and change my mind

what if i told you
about every single thing
that made you so perfect
at least to me

what if i told you
how long it took
for me too look at you
and not feel mistook

what if i told you
about the the hate that grew
in that period of time
i distanced myself from you

what if i told you
that i'm not the same
when you said you couldnt love me
i learned a new level of pain

what if i told you
i don't love you anymore
would you believe me
despite what i said before

what if you told me
you really felt the same
i cried out all the memories
so i really couldn't say
those feelings have been gone
but maybe the could be saved
i forgot how to want you
so i could stay sane
but i'm driving myself mad with these hypotheticals
but i'm trapped in my brain

what if i told you
i don't believe in love
forgetting you and losing myself
proved to be enough
to take the romantic in me
and show her that it's too ******* bad
love is just a concept
and it's nothing i will ever truly have