Apr 2019
When I first met her,
She had a smile as bright as the Stars.
Eyes always lighting up.
A mind that would soar.
She loved stories.
About dragons, knights, and queens.
The ones with magic.
The ones with thieves.
So, I’m going to tell you a story.
About how a girl who can die so many times.
About a girl that has lived,
A thousand times.
The first time she died, she was 11 years old.
She moved from one state,
Right out the door.
She was reborn a few months later.
Her love was for the violin.
She cherished her music.
It taught her to swim.
She died when she was 14.
Her dad left her mom.
Kicked out of the house on March 22nd.
She felt she had nowhere to run.
She once again was reborn.
Her violin kept her here.
Her friends and her teachers,
All wiped away her tears.
She died for her third time when she got accepted.
A bittersweet death,
One she didn’t know she could cheer.
This one took a long time for her to be reborn.
The school of music was what she wanted.
But she also wanted more.
She was reborn when her mom pulled her out.
And felt the hug of her friends a few days later.
To see the smile on their faces.
To hear that they missed her.
She died on her first heartbreak.
But she was reborn because she had loving friends.
She died when someone betrayed her.
But she was reborn when she promised “Never again.”
But what I never understood, was her death on September 1st of 2018.
That was the day that changed her.
The day she told me she would never die again.
That no one could steal her heart.
That no one would ever break in.
She told me that she was herself.
That his lies wouldn’t break her.
I saw her build a wall on her own.
I saw her start to pretend.
A few days later she died again.
But this time because of her sister.
Suicide watch was on the run.
She thought no one would understand.
To be not a burden,
She shut herself in.
She closed all her doors.
She started to pretend.
She was reborn when she started to heal.
She realized her worth,
She knew not to kneel.
She was her own,
No one could take her.
No one could stop her.
She was her maker.
She had a smile as bright as the Stars.
Eyes always lighting up.
A mind that would soar.
She loved stories.
About dragons, knights, and queens.
The ones with magic.
The ones with thieves.
So, I’m going to tell you a story.
About how a girl who can die so many times.
About a girl that has lived,
A thousand times.
The first time she died, she was 11 years old.
She moved from one state,
Right out the door.
She was reborn a few months later.
Her love was for the violin.
She cherished her music.
It taught her to swim.
She died when she was 14.
Her dad left her mom.
Kicked out of the house on March 22nd.
She felt she had nowhere to run.
She once again was reborn.
Her violin kept her here.
Her friends and her teachers,
All wiped away her tears.
She died for her third time when she got accepted.
A bittersweet death,
One she didn’t know she could cheer.
This one took a long time for her to be reborn.
The school of music was what she wanted.
But she also wanted more.
She was reborn when her mom pulled her out.
And felt the hug of her friends a few days later.
To see the smile on their faces.
To hear that they missed her.
She died on her first heartbreak.
But she was reborn because she had loving friends.
She died when someone betrayed her.
But she was reborn when she promised “Never again.”
But what I never understood, was her death on September 1st of 2018.
That was the day that changed her.
The day she told me she would never die again.
That no one could steal her heart.
That no one would ever break in.
She told me that she was herself.
That his lies wouldn’t break her.
I saw her build a wall on her own.
I saw her start to pretend.
A few days later she died again.
But this time because of her sister.
Suicide watch was on the run.
She thought no one would understand.
To be not a burden,
She shut herself in.
She closed all her doors.
She started to pretend.
She was reborn when she started to heal.
She realized her worth,
She knew not to kneel.
She was her own,
No one could take her.
No one could stop her.
She was her maker.
