so **** you, honestly. because until tonight i thought i felt okay, but i think i’m lonely.
my heart sticks to the walls of my chest and i’m thankful for the cold because it means i can wear mittens and have an excuse for the spaces between my fingers to be empty.
it’s a quarter after three in the morning, and i miss you.
and i don’t even know who i’m talking to, really.
but that’s kind of the problem, too. i’m not talking to anyone.
everyone’s sleeping, and i’d be sad but i don’t want to be sad anymore.
so i sing to my dog for an hour and do some laundry, and wonder where my words went.
and soon i’ll take a shower, and soon i’ll go to bed,
and soon you’ll wake up and not think of me.
and that’s okay, because as strangers, i have no place in your life.
and as strangers, you have no place in my heart or in my head.
but you, you are everywhere else. and that’s kind of the problem, too.
but i guess i understand why they say lonely people are always up in the middle of the night, because i am. because until tonight i thought i felt okay, but i think i’m lonely.