Disasters pushing me down a winding staircase. I guess my life is always a test but it feels like a distorted race. I can’t find the right place. What’s left of my mind space? I just want to leave in hopes of a new pace. But I’m stuck on figuring where I could find a home. Maybe this would be easier if I could find my soul. I’m lost and I don’t know which direction to go. My feelings have mostly left again, is it better than feeling woe?