Lord, I am not worthy to receive you.
But only say the words.
And I shall be healed?
What is your plan now, Oh, master in the sky?
What is the sense in this?
How much pain can one endure?
This is a different pain. Something I’m not familiar with.
Telling him I loved him, only to hear silence in return.
Isn’t ****** a crime?
I was almost certain it was.

I am meant to be alone.
I want no one by my side. None at all.
Arise once again my walls of steel.
Let the barbed wire crawl around.
The mere touch leaves a pin ***** of blood.
Don’t come near me.
Don’t touch me.
Don’t speak to me.
I am an island and no one is wanted here.
Turn away. And let me bask in my solitude

Rather than running from loneliness, I embrace it
Welcome it like I would a long lost friend
Nourish it like I would my soul
Learn its every inch, angle, and curve
Know it and know it well
Stay weary of others
Who look nice and pleasant, but under the facade,
Like a dose of poison

I desire no companionship, for I am unlovable.
I do not deserve love.
I should not possess it.
I should not own it.
I am unworthy to receive it