I almost said goodbye tonight.
I came this close.
Home alone
music blasting...
A simple note left on the counter.
Took a deep breath, and let the water rush over my face.
Soon, it'd all be over.
But then some of the soapy water got into my mouth.
I started to gag, sat up out of reflex.
Immediately, I started crying histerically.
"What am I doing?"
and as I sat there in the steam filled room,
so close to closing my eyes forever;
I came to the realization of how utterly ****** up I am.