I can feel it slipping through my fingers,
The love we once had.
I can feel myself thinking of others more and more.
How long will it take for me to finally be fed up?
The pain I feel from this experience.
That you are too busy or forgot our anniversary.
Even after I said something.
I keep waiting.
For something to change for you to get better for you to impress me.
And I wonder
Will I ever be proud to tell people about you?
I find myself disappointed more often than not.
And I wonder is this how other relationships are?
Am I too scared to be alone?
Am I too scared that I will always be alone?
What if a man with a career and me do not mix?
But that’s something I want.
I want to be proud to say this is my boyfriend and he does this and he makes me feel like the best and only woman in the world.
And that’s simply not the case.
Are my trust issues my issues or soemthing I would have only with you?
I am tired of questioning.