alone in this unfamiliar city
I want to take the keys to my car and just go anywhere else
drive until the thoughts in my head run out of gas
there’s so many questions I don’t know how to answer
tears are streaming down my face
and all I can see is yours
I wonder if i broke your heart by running away
I get a sick thrill from knowing you’d miss me
I just want to be alright, I see myself screaming it at you
You can’t understand you can’t possibly understand what this feels like I say as I claw at my skin
I’m dying inside but the rest of me is alive
my hearts beating
Smoke swirling around the fire I’ve set
You’re staring at me through the grey
I’m covered in blood I’m wiping it off like a madman
you’re reaching for me but I don’t know how to tell you this isn’t real
None of this is real
you and I
We’re over
And no smoke signals will bring you back to me