It looked like it might all could be About you I held up ashes, a crown, a withered spoon And with the sharpest hammer Attempted to build a ship.
As captain, It was my job To fulfill myself within the seas To not let labor fool me.
I handed you chance after chance Gilding myself in what I think you might like best Pulling out every trick We loved so well in moments I hung onto them with the tip of my tongue And now work through a weary shame.
The poison you offered me Was not for me to drink But I pursued it all in all Because I think I like to suffer.
I'm able to recognize the darkness within me And as I built the ship Out of so little tools Water hitting and splashing me Among the rampage I whistled my way all through it Hoping the sound of my own purrs Drowned out the stinging Drowned out the whimpering blame I'd catch And ultimately tumble into.
A saddened rage fills my bones When I think about how similar You were to my past And I just hope that now that I've made a ship Out of next to nothing Time and time again I'll stop harboring the emptiness Of unfulfilled labor And a lack of grace.
My basket of treasures I offered so many to you A dinosaur around my neck You were so good in moments We were so good in moments And now that I'm back with time to **** The absence of you runs still.
I imagine that you think on me too Drowning out the sound Of moans, my naked thighs, and the way my life would curl All around you like there was nothing more Nothing less.
I gave up on Just like you asked me to do And I don't doubt that if I wanted to return to the well To drink up more of the poisonous water I so could.
I guess there is a refuge in that thought But in the night When we once would spend our time I'd try to forget what you weren't giving me Spreading myself so thin I couldn't notice
But it's you who has to know that the love you were given It's you that has to live with your failures It's you that has to look in the mirror and see truth As I sat across from you Your hands on my legs Kissing you for the last time You were so upset I looked so upset But I rode away for the last time