i just need to hear you say it
maybe because i am the one that is insecure
i used to be able to accept love so much more easily
or maybe my past lovers didn't mean much to me
but you're different
and yet not
i wanted to be different for you
and now i just want to hurt you
to run away and never see you again
to make you wonder what happened to me
maybe i just fell of the edge of the earth
or maybe i was just a dream to begin with
either way i think what we shared was silly
can you really live life like that?
reading poetry to each other every night
as if there's nothing to be done
and what of life. when does it begin or end. don't we have something to do at the end of the day?

i'm going to try to pretend you don't exist. that i'm not hurt by you.
that i feel secure in your love.
is my insecurity something real or my ego
- tripping.
all these mistakes coming back to haunt me
it's misery.
and i am the miserable.