you haven't texted me in two weeks.
I texted you once but that was such
an adventure in feeling unwanted that
I will not stick my toe in that pool ever again

I dont know what happened
maybe you found someone who is better
at listening to the events of your days
or
maybe your guilt caught up to you
though why now after all this time makes no sense to me

I tell myself that you are ordinary
that there is no spark
but even if I swallow that lie
I cannot ignore the pull of your eyes
and my willingness to do whatever you ask

So until you reach out
I'll have my pride to keep my company
and ill pray you hear one of my songs
or that I'll grace everyone of your dreams
but i won't give in
you have won everything from me
I can't give you this.