A small victory earned today.
I thought I was out.
I wanted to end it all again,
And leave them all about.
I thought it was all over,
I thought I was finally done.
A small glimpse of happiness and I thought I wasn’t numb.

I wanted to be at rest. I wanted to finally relax,
But I can’t get it off my chest, the family that’ll be on my back.
I never thought they cared,
The bond was only blood,
But I just can’t shake this feeling.
This **** feeling in my gut.

My mind struggles to hold on,
Holding back my temptation.
I can’t even remember the days,
Were happiness wasn’t just my imagination.

I have to put it back down, I need to find my grit.
I need to put it all aside and finally recommit.

Recommit to finding happiness,
To find my own light.
I hate this feeling inside my head.
But for myself.
I have to fight.