What did they say?
I walked out with the rain falling on my face in total dismay

Smokey plumes float past
Is it relatable toxic?
No, I need oxygen
to clear my own path

I watch the clouds give way
And wonder if like the sun 
I will get a lucky break

I feel the heat begin to melt
My own friend who's whispered me help
Starts to dissipate like a snowman on new years day

Has everything he said been a lie?
Every direction of his affection just to get me by?

But my friend is the one I trust
This lady was nice but I never felt that she steered me right 

How could she? We've only just met
Now I've got to break down our walls
Just because its for the best?

Ha I get it man I'm depressed and this is a test of my faith to you
my friend you know me best

For Every hurdle that fell, 
For every story I tell, 
Our memory unfurls
for every step through hell

I couldn't begin to tell you how much **** you put me through too. 
I can't remember if it was for the best for me
or the best for you.

Every doubt in my brain you made so I could refrain from showing myself off again

But maybe they are right
I shouldn't listen to you anymore
We lone wolves but now I take my advice from and subscribe to a different pack

Breathe its ok, you feel like a robot and it's just a phase they say!
To me it's just another locus within the plague

I find myself on this high-rise and try as I might I can't hear your voice

Its void vs void the choice is the same

I can chose to make myself happy
While others are burdened with my pain
Or I can be the reason there's still a smile on everyones face.
So I sway, and I sway.

I miss you buddy, always deep within the caves of my mind
Right or wrong what you instruct made me feel insanely safe

And now I've forced you away
I feel more pain than everyone claimed I have

Now I've got to think of a future where your not there
And I have to admit I'm feeling
Pretty scared

The normality of reality
Is grim but I must bare
And the silence is just not fair

Goodbye my friend
You've done nothing good for me
Or so they say so you must leave

Is this the feeling of ok?
It must be!
But this world I've been dropped in
I don't properly trust it

And now my knees are buckling
Apparently my mind is clear
Everyone says I'm on the road of mend
But deep inside I'm still suffering.

All because you are not here
The whispers are gone
The silence is deafening
I'm a different man
Because you were forced to leave me

We've been told to take it one day at a time
You dissolved into the caves of my mind
While I strengthen mine
I just hope we see each other on the other side
I'm just waiting for the other side