It was a year that looked good on checks, at the top of every newspaper: 2013. I grew thin running laps around Toluca Lake, thinking the whole time it was a poor substitute for the ocean. I was employed and in love in Oklahoma City. I was unemployed and alone in Tuscumbia, Alabama. Everything was blind. Everything was deaf, my desire buried in salt and coffee lingered on my breath. 2013. I'm younger. I'm stronger. I'm persistent and there's an actual comb in my actual hair. And I'd pass by you like a jewelry store window, my mind half a brick. Shatter the modest glass. Mazel tov? Do you know what that means? What good fortune. Why do they say what good fortune? It's a compact lesson in reframing. And I frame myself for ******. And I frame myself on the refrigerator. And I frame my last check. And I frame my arguments on my back, in a swimming pool, thinking of Toluca Lake.