I can’t see past that moment sometimes

Walking through the front door
Unbelief and utter knowing mixed together like shaken oil and water
Together in one space but completely separate

I wanted to fight the world
Anger a balm on a bleeding heart

Tears a weakness I could not abide
Iron in my blood
Chin held high with chipped teeth gritting past
Smiling for the world
Don’t let them see
Don’t let them touch you

Time went on
I learned to breathe again
It all goes back to a new normal

Now enter stage right:

Death again
A classic creeping figure this time
Not a jump scare
Steal my brother in the night scene

But every performance he now makes is tainted with your memory

And when I cry, finally, at this curtain call it will be you and our childhood that will flash behind my eyes