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Finn
Poems
Mar 2019
Pain
Deep inside of my bones I feel
I feel the need to
Be hurt
Broken
And abused
Even though I know that
I don't deserve that
Nobody deserves that
And yet I'd still take the beating
For anyone else
If not to spare them from the pain
Then it'd be to feel the pain for myself
But sometimes
I can feel it
In my hands and on my tongue
The compulsion to hurt
To destroy someone
To see them crumble
So that I can watch them
Build themselves up again
And come back
And give me the pain I'm due
And yet
I can't bring myself to harm anybody
But myself
And recently
I haven't been able to do that either
I'm scared of myself
For all these thoughts
And aches
And deep desires
But at least
I can find comfort in the fact that
These are but sick fantasies
That will not play out in reality
Ever
I keep my mouth shut
And hands to myself
And I can only
Keep thinking these thoughts
And wonder
What it would be like to
Perform them
Like a show
An act
A performance
Tears would stream down my face
But I would smile
And that'd be the key detail
To my pain
Isn't it funny how we, as humans can create so much but also have the ability to completely destroy?
Written by
Finn
17/Transmasculine/MI
(17/Transmasculine/MI)
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