I do not exist,
Outside the rims of your eyes.
When you see me they sparkle
And you come alive.

My family looks at me,
I do not know what they see-
I think they see nothing at all.
Whatever it is,
Is easily believed.
But you rush to me,
Pull me close.
“Our love is unbelievable”
You whisper as my anxieties doze.

My friends see me,
I am needed and used.
And when the temper flares
I am shamefully abused.
You always say you need me,
But more than that.
You want me in your life,
And never on me have you spat.
Or left me downtrodden,
To hide.

My books shun me,
And spite me with the words.
My cd’s play all the wrong songs,
Even if that is absurd.
Your words seek to lull me,
In a voice like a melody.
Your melody is never wrong,
Even when you sing out of key.

I’ve spent a night not existing,
Lost without a clue.
I do not need to be sad,
When I do exist
If only to you.