All those years spent
Running in the dark
Fatigue eats at me
Vulnerable and empty I become...

Everything feels endless
I was never "whole" entirely of
What I remember as staying "sane"
Truthfully, this war that went
For decades on in...
You weren't suppose to
Be part of any of this!

The disease takes it's course
Everything from what I can
Consciously, recall before
The pull... sunk me in deeply.
Watching the colors of my
Mystical paradise dissolve
The skies INCINERATED before
another thought manifested into
This world of wonder!
This unholy explosion
Took away all of my
Beloved ELOQUENT memories encased
In heavenly glass of my fragile youth
and unpredictable future, shattered upon
the very ground I stand...

This unearthly presence shrouded
Me for most of my lifetime.
Consumed by anguish that
Never flushes itself out,
here I crumble...
Under the pressure while
Suffocating in this struggle
Trying to obtain my light!
The consent for my
eternal damnation cannot
be resigned!

This shared voice between
my dark mind and soul
boomed in my head
Erupting in my aching ears

"If I wanted to, everything you
Cherished so dearly could have been
Stripped from you a lot sooner!
This deadly taste is for your curiosity...
You're nothing more than a decaying vessel
You respond and serve my needs...
Without my force to power your will
Your purpose in existence is fruitless
Betray me and your dreams will never be more
Than dust to occupy space..."