Feb 2019
Another mind racing, sleepless night
And all that surrounds me is the dark
Even in daylight
I can't open my eyes after finally falling asleep
My tears have glued them shut
Because all I've done is weep.
You really don't know what you've got til it's gone
I lost everything at once
My job, my kids, our home.
I'm so lost
Not sure if I can be found
Am I too far gone?
Sometimes I question
Does God really exist?
And if he is
Maybe he's teaching me a lesson
But did it have to be one
as harsh as this.
I don't where to begin
My life is so broken
My faith and hope has come to an end
I understand life is what you make it
I accept responsibility
It's all my fault
But I was doing the right thing
I was on the right track
Or so I thought
Now I'm here
At the end of the dead end
Time to make a decision
I've already given in
But Do I want to give up
I know I'm stronger than this
I'll get my mind right
I will get my life back
I will not quit
No more sleepless nights.
And all that surrounds me is the dark
Even in daylight
I can't open my eyes after finally falling asleep
My tears have glued them shut
Because all I've done is weep.
You really don't know what you've got til it's gone
I lost everything at once
My job, my kids, our home.
I'm so lost
Not sure if I can be found
Am I too far gone?
Sometimes I question
Does God really exist?
And if he is
Maybe he's teaching me a lesson
But did it have to be one
as harsh as this.
I don't where to begin
My life is so broken
My faith and hope has come to an end
I understand life is what you make it
I accept responsibility
It's all my fault
But I was doing the right thing
I was on the right track
Or so I thought
Now I'm here
At the end of the dead end
Time to make a decision
I've already given in
But Do I want to give up
I know I'm stronger than this
I'll get my mind right
I will get my life back
I will not quit
No more sleepless nights.
#MyVeryFirstPoem
At the worst time of my life, in the midst of constant mistakes and bad decisions, when I was at my lowest low and feeling like I would never get back to who I was before, feeling trapped with nothing or no one to talk to or help me get through it....
So, in that lowest moment, I decided to write my feelings down. And without even thinking about it, I discovered poetry. I wrote about everything that bothered me; past, present and future. And now, Iām thankful to say that lowest moment is a faint memory. Poetry was the one positive in all the negative weighing me down. And it was enough to get me back to good, which is where I am now.
At the worst time of my life, in the midst of constant mistakes and bad decisions, when I was at my lowest low and feeling like I would never get back to who I was before, feeling trapped with nothing or no one to talk to or help me get through it....
So, in that lowest moment, I decided to write my feelings down. And without even thinking about it, I discovered poetry. I wrote about everything that bothered me; past, present and future. And now, Iām thankful to say that lowest moment is a faint memory. Poetry was the one positive in all the negative weighing me down. And it was enough to get me back to good, which is where I am now.
