Darkness veils my thoughts
Not gentle, or inviting to sleep
No an intense choking of them

A blackness you cannot imagine
A feeling of alone you can't describe
Not the first time, but may be the last

Like a tight restraint
There can be no clarity
Just a wanton lust for self destruction
Anxiety feeds its depths
A burning tight grip in the chest

Sinister your thoughts collate
Not segmented, oh no
They spiral out of control
They have no place here
Yet have no other home

You're in turmoil and beg for release
Held to mortality by a strand
It's threads thining with each attack
Yet you may see me smile

I don't condemn you for not seeing
You just wouldn't understand
If I tried to explain I'd scare you
You can't comprehend such pain

I die a little more each day
I know not what keeps me here now
Is this simply an existence rather than life
Darkness veils my thoughts