Never had a Valentine I'm 27 pathetic right First kiss was a dancer by profession Not professional just dim lights and cheap velvet I was 19 she was 45 Told me I reminded her of her daughter She's still pushing up daisies in her suicidal garden I wanted mine to be covered in four leaf clovers I'm a self proclaimed oddball Reclusive nature is my cowardice It leads to uneasy easy comfort Long for contact from other humans Yet detest them at the same time I love music like every breathing being loves water Still I dance with two left feet Fashion sense resembles a jester Yet again it's uneasy easy comfort Finding balance in chemical imbalance Had plenty talents Still too trapped in my own cerebral functioning Biggest accomplishment is that I'm a caretaker Oddly enough I barely take care of myself Thought it just fine as long as I had a wicked liquid buzz Or heavily ****** like a witch in colonial times Now I jumped state but I really couldn't flee From my problems Said plenty of times that I hate people Said plenty of times that I hate girls that fawn over Guys I consider schmucks Truth is I must hate myself Most days