it's 9:44 now
you're already gone

i can feel it this time in my bones like the air i breathe

you're gone because i told you to go

why didn't you know that's not what i meant
why didn't you stop my pain with your hands

i'm bleeding out,
apply pressure,
stitch this wound i created

tell me there's another world where we exist

tell me we have a perfect life on a perfect street in a perfect house

don't tell me it ends the same every way
don't tell me we always end with our heads in our hands
in separate bedrooms

shoulders shaking like this is the end
because we both know it is