you say yes other factors make you want to say no you want to grow up others don't know you try to change but they view you the same this is your life and not playing all the mind games you want a career not trying to get married or have kids i feel that's the easy way out not for me or settling for less you want to be more be better than what is given you grew up know the day of power will be yours and you have risen you've made good and bad decisions but learn the lesson of life be right do right always be loyal to yourself before you do anything else you've altered your ego to be accepted you altered it back because you hated yourself for being someone your not or meant to be the ego is a power struggle within battling you when faced with sin and tempation