I am alone. I am afraid. I am sorry. I am a disappointment. I never meant for it to be this way. I just wanted a happy family. I am unsure of what I did. I sometimes wish I was never born. I wish you could be happy. I wish you didn't hate me. I wish I didn't hate you. I wish we could keep up the facade for a few more months. I wish I had paid attention. I wish I had a plan. I wish I was smarter. I wish I wasn't such a disappointment. I am sorry you don't want me. I am sorry you have to defend me. I am sorry to be causing so many issues. I am sorry. I am afraid. I am alone.