You tell me I’m missing but you fail to see my vision
on how i feel like everyone is against me
Either you’re tryna love me or you tryna take me out
drag me thru your hell & get mad if i make it out
Soft hearted & easily forgiving
Lost of interest & never holding anyone back from leaving
I won’t beg for you to understand me
I won’t beg for you to understand this feeling
I don’t expect you to relate to someone’s whose paranoid & contemplate self killing
Don’t tell me to chill, this is how i feel
I can’t be wit you if i can’t be real
I can’t find myself but I’m still on the search
I lost myself thru the lies & the hands laid on me from church
from a pastor telling me that I’m unique from my head to my feet
But the Devil is telling me i ain’t **** which is why i can’t avoid defeat
Maybe I’m sick or maybe I’m hopeless
Depression was hereditary, i never chose it
Feel my heartbeat, maybe you can follow its rhythm
& drown within my alcoholic sorrows that swims in my system
My tears created the rain & the breakage in my heart made it thunder
but the real me lies deep in my soul waiting for someone to discover
the true essence of what I’m really made of
& once they find out, their reaction is what I’m afraid of